I remember looking at so many people and asking them about their weight-loss, what they did, and what they went thru to cure their eating problem, and I've never gotten a response. Can I just say, that used to bug the S*** outta me! I would ask myself "Why?, Why wont they respond to me??" I just can't understand why another human being (who was Fat) wouldn't want to help another human being out? ESPECIALLY when they know how it feels to be that big :( I mean come on, thats not fair! Right? lol
These two pictures above were taken in high school in 2003. The first picture was in the mall with a friend and they were doing some "red carpet event" for Clearasil. I got free skincare stuff by the way lol and the second picture was taken in the lunch room in high school (my favorite period of the day lol) in 2003 as well
These two pictures with dad were taken in India in....oh God wow, hang on I'm trying to think......Okay, it was December 2002. I remember it was because I went to Salman Khans party he had for his birthday and it was the first time I had met Katrina! and may I add, she is beautiful!
The very next day after attending Salman Khans party, the picture down below was published on Page 6 or Page 3 whatever is known over there!, I forgot. This is when India got a real good glimpse of me and my life changed...completely.
Hey, I kinda look thinner in this picture....maybe I shed some pounds while I was there? lollllll
As the years went on....I kept eating, and eating, and eating, and eating, and eating, and eating...and what do ya know - a good 5 years later in June\July 2008, I turned into this.....
I should have put this picture above the previous 2 so it's in order but whatever! - the picture down below with me and dad was taken in Jan 2007 (the last time I went to India and the first time I met Maanayata) This is an extremely popular picture, I think the whole world has seen this picture, it's used everywhere! Have any of you wondered why am I wearing that ugly black shawl? Well, it's because I'm trying to hide my weight behind it. Obviously it didn't work :( hahahaha
I do want to make a comment about this picture. This picture was taken at Karan Johars Studio when we filmed Koffee with Karan. This picture wasn't rehearsed or anything. I think dad made a really sweet comment to me that made me smile...you can tell from my face that I'm happy with whatever he said lol I think it's cute...We really need an updated picture though...I was 19 years old here.
Now, I'm pretty confident some of you are saying lots of things to yourselves, showing some of your family members, or calling up your friends or whatever lol but yeah.....that was me.
The reason why I shared these embarrassing pictures with all of you is because I want you to know that in every picture that you see, I may have a smile on my face...but inside I'm I'm breaking. I was falling apart physically and emotionally. My self esteem was the lowest of the low if you can ever imagine that. I'm not sure how many men or women can relate with me on this subject but I can't stress enough how unhappy I was....and being in the spotlight didn't help AT ALL because I was constantly being watched and targeted. It actually made me feel worse because I knew what everyone was saying.....
1) She looks like a Cow
2) She's so Fat
3) She needs to loose weight
5) She's looks like a house
6) She looks like a tomato (lol...I'm serious!!!) etc...
I had so many people laughing at me. Still to this day, the "desi" crowd in high school (when I went) still thinks I'm such a Snob because I never spoke to anybody.
The reason why I never spoke to the "desi crowd" in high school was because I was really self conscious about myself. Everyone knew who's daughter I was and I think in their head they already had a mental picture of me (slim, fit, possibly decent looking? since I'm "baba's" daughter) which was not reality! and I was really embarrassed with myself. I didn't want to be seen at all. I never went to a single desi or cultural event. I never went to anyones house parties or birthday parties. I completely stayed away. Not because I wanted to, but because my body was so huge, nothing decent would even fit me! I was just so big I didn't want to be seen to give someone the opportunity to say anything about my looks.
I had maybe 10 friends in highschool that I would talk to, and some that happend to talk to me once in a while were in my classes, so I couldn't avoid everyone. Most of my friends were online....who remembers xanga? and myspace? etc... I used to make friends on there instead of real life interactions...and those friends who I made on these sites I still haven't even met in real life yet but I still maintain such a great friendship with them. (You know who you all are) <3 and I hope to meet all of you really soon one day...
The good thing about me though is that I never backed down to anyone no matter how I looked. I always stood up for myself. Anytime anyone would say a smartass comment or tried to be slick with me, I always tore them a new one ;) lol I wasn't scared of anyone.
Well, actually...at that time, I may have been scared of what people would think of how I looked cause I was a teenager and you know how it is! high school crushes and all that dramafull stuff but today I wouldn't give a damn. I always stood up for myself, I will continue doing so, and I will stand up for ANYBODY who's going thru a problem or an issue. My mouth has no filter sometimes. If your nice, & respectful towards me, I'm nicer and more respectful towards you. If you want to be a B**** with me, well, lollll you can bet a pretty penny I will put your A** on Blast......in Public. I don't need to know your name for that either lol So be Nice to everyone of all shapes and sizes! Don't be rude! Don't be a bully! Don't have an attitude for no reason, Just be a Nice Human Being and give people a chance before judging them.
In May 2009, I got my act together. There were numerous incidents in my life that had happend that made me go enough is enough! One of them which some of you know is that I liked a particular Juicy Couture tracksuit which not even an XL fit me! & I was really upset about not being able to wear one (everyone was wearing them at that time). One particular incidence which I'm going to share is a really emotional one...
I had liked this one boy......who now I don't give a rats ass about lol
had said some really mean (but only for my own good) things to me. I remember I was in the car with him...I was in the drivers seat, he was in the passangers seat... and he said...
"I'm not physically attracted to you....anymore" -
Those words hurt me so badly. Imagine someone who you really like saying that to you? or imagine your husband even saying those words to you! What type of person says that?? That hit me so hard. It was a really emotional blow to me....and we were dating!!.
So basically my bf at the time said some really messed up things to me instead of being supportive!...... oh, and like an idiot I took his shit for many years and he eventually dumped me because I wasn't "fit" enough. I was too fat. Yeahhh, yup.... you heard me! hahah What a great guy right? lol
Good job Trish you picked a real winner!......NOT!
When I look back on life now I cannot believe I was with someone of such low status and allowed him to treat me that way and say such things to me. At the time I was young and confused about what I had wanted that I just took all his criticism and unkind words. A person should love you for who you really are inside. Looks aren't everything. I know we live in a very shallow society and I understand everyone should take better care of themselves, but he could have supported me, or told me in a nicer way to loose weight & encourage me by saying positive things like "You can do it!, I have faith in you" etc etc...but he didn't.
Oh well, we all make mistakes. Live, Learn, Moooveeeee On! :)
When he told me that, I promised him, in 8 months I will have the smallest waist size ever, and I'll show him who I am.
(I actually didn't have THE smallest waist in 8 months, but there was a HUGE difference in me anyway)
*BEAST MODE - ON*
A few days after that lovely incidence lol I joined a gym which is called Equinox www.equinox.com and I invested $2,300 for a trainer. I bought a pack of 24 lessons & I trained with my trainer 4x a week for one hour. I did all strength training.
the reason why my trainer cost $2,300 is because of the gym that I go to. Not all trainers cost that much! You can get the same results as me by going to ANY gym and investing in a Good trainer and a trainer who you feel comfortable with. Main reason why I go to Equinox is because not many of our cultural people go there. I tried LA fitness, and every possible gym you can imagine but I always have a handful of people that recognize me and when I work out - for that one hour I want to give it my everything...no distractions at all! ---- and I want to get lost in my music! I love my music <3
I've posted a video down below so you can see exactly what all I did in the gym with my trainer for one hour 4 times a week! This isn't all of it but it's a good baseline for you guys to start when your ready! After I was done with my trainer. I did my cardio for half an hour which was the treadmill or elliptical machine :)
(I'm not sure if you can view these videos if your checking my blog thru your phone, you may have to use your computer)
I know this video may look really intimidating but please don't be scared to incorporate strength training into your life. Ladies, you will not look like a body builder, you will not get big, nothing is going to happen to you. I swear, I promise. Please trust me. Even I was skeptical because I was already so big, I didn't want to get bigger! But you really need to strength train to get your metabolism up, and BURN FAT!!! and the best part about strength training is that when your done, your body is still burning calories throughout the day! It doesn't stop, so GET ON IT! and stop saying "I'll do it tomorrow". Start TODAY, and you'll achieve your goal a day earlier than if you start tomorrow.
FYI (For your information) - If you don't strength train and you're extremely overweight, you WILL have sagging skin and there is nothing you can do to change that once that happens unless you get it surgical removed. So be careful, and remember to tone your body\strength train even a little bit as your working out to loose weight :) Hit the weights!
1 pound of fat is 3,500 calories. If you want to lose one pound a week, just burn 500 calories a day more than you eat. Fitness is a science, not magic.
MY DIET - I remember when I was working out with my trainer, I was confused on what I could eat and what I couldn't eat. You don't have to eat less, you just have to eat right! Before I started any type of diet, I watched this youtube video
and wrote all these tips down....you should also, it really helps and it's educational! Watch it.
So after I watched this video, I followed everything she said and I ate healthy. I cut out all Soda and I just drank water. I didn't give up my Iced Lattes from Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts. I had that at least once a day with extra milk (2%) and 3 powder sugars :) yummy!
I didn't deprive myself at all. I ate whatever I wanted but in moderation. I didn't eat pasta though. All those carbs and sauces just scared me and I knew that wouldn't help my weight loss at all...(Common Sense).
And NO! Whole Wheat pasta is not any better, not if it's drowning in sauce!
Anytime I had a sweet tooth, I would buy those hershey kisses and i would eat between 3-5 of them in a day and if I did, than I wouldn't have my latte. You can't have it all! You have to pick one sweet thing you want. ONE! thats it.
I know our cultural food has a lot of oil in it and theres nothing we can do to avoid that. But you can do somethings!
NO BUTTER on naan or roti! and if your making roti's make sure it's whole wheat. Eat whatever you want but put little servings on your plate and don't go for seconds. NO RICE..... you can either have rice or bread but you can't have both in one meal unless you want to kill yourself in the gym the next day. This is all my personal opinion by the way. I'm not a dietitian.
Use common sense when choosing your food that you eat as well. If you know it's bad for you don't eat it. If you really can't control yourself have a BITE or two but thats it! Really try and push yourself...I'm telling you nothing is more satisfying than seeing your collarbone sticking out :) think of how good that necklace is going to look on you!
I ate a lot of sushi on my diet...I love japanese food and I love sushi and sashimi so I ate a lot of that and it mostly consisted of Salmon with BROWN rice. I ate a lot of fish like Seabass, Salmon, Tuna. I ate Turkey, Salads (no dressings), anything that was lean and healthy. I can enjoy bland food and I can eat the same thing constantly if I have to! So I had no problem here.
No Mcdonalds (just think of it as McShit) :D lollll No fast food of any kind! It's not good for you at all. I can understand once in a while your traveling, you haven't eaten...you need something quick than okay, but do not make it a habit. You will have a lifetime of complications!
After following a healthy diet, & training with my trainer...I transformed into This...
After following a healthy diet, & training with my trainer...I transformed into This...
LOWEST WEIGHT EVER (TODAY) - 150lbs
HEIGHT - 5'7 1/2
BODYFAT% - 20%
TOTAL WEIGHT LOSS - 70lbs
I'm in a much better place than I have ever been in my life. I weigh 150lbs which is average and I am in NO way AT ALL complaining. I probably don't look 150lbs but that's because of my height and because of the amount of body fat I've lost., not to mention I'm extremely toned as well so it all balances out. I could afford to loose more weight if I want but I'm not working out currently to loose weight. I'm just doing it to maintain what I have and to keep tone. If I loose more weight, great! lol if not, that's okay as well.
I just want to say that I am living proof that this is possible. I'm not the only person in the world who has achieved this, you can google so many before and after pictures to see for yourself to get even more motivated.
I reached this by being honest with myself and by old fashioned diet and exercise. I took no shortcuts at all. I've tried before but I've had many failed attempts. In the end, when you want something bad enough, you work to obtain it. I was desperate to find a new life for myself physically and I did.....you can too if you really put your mind to it.
You just have to ask yourself - How bad do you really want it?
Do you want the pleasure of 5 minutes of taste, or do you want the pleasure of looking good for many years to come?
When you get your answer, you'll start making changes. I've noticed that when it comes to me personally, something traumatizing has to happen to me in order for me to make a change in my life lol I know that sounds dramatic but sometimes I really need to learn to hard way.
I gain most of my weight on my upper body. From my waist down I'm very narrow, and from my top up I'm extremely broad and big, so shopping for shirts and jackets till this day is hard for me. In tops I vary from S, M, L, and XL still because of my broadness. But I am mostly between a medium & large. If a top of over-sized and flowy I can do a small.
My waist size then was a 30-31 (12-14)
My waist size now is a 26. (2)
I am in no way a "size Zero" nor do I tend on becoming that. I really don't want to become obsessed with looking a certain way. Society does not control me, I control me. Society may have a certain impact on all of us, Yes. - However, I will not let it rule my life. I've made certain changes to "fit in" and become a healthier person and thats the farthest I will go.
I do however envy those girls who can go shopping without trying anything on because you know already know your size and how your clothes will fit! lol I wish I could do that...thats cool, Good for you :)
I'll be honest, I had put on some weight June 2012...I put on 15lbs. I went to Italy for a family vacation and I didn't control what I ate at all, and I didn't work out. I ate everything and anything - It was all Italian by the way. MAXIMUM CARBS!!! I really had lost myself and when I gained 15lbs, I gained body fat as well and my jeans were feeling tight, my face got rounder, and all my weight gain came on my upper body.
I FREAKED!!!!! OUT! lol and it didn't actually hit me until months later! because I got so comfortable eating everything! All that delicious food made me feel happy and free lol and I did pay a price for it....I looked like shit in all of my clothes! and it was very noticeable I had put on weight!
I didn't feel good about myself even though I wasn't 220lbs or even close to it anymore, I still felt like I was that same big girl again.... so I went back to eating healthy, lost my weight I put on and here I am now...back to 150! :D yay!
Once you loose weight from being a big girl or big guy, you will constantly protect yourself. Even if you put on some weight, you WILL take control at one point before it's too late...because the gratification on being fit and you knowing how you look at your lowest weight, I guarantee you, you will never go back. I won't and I know I wont. I will NEVER let myself go to the way I was before. EVER. It's not gonna happen. and you shouldn't let it happen to you either.
if your loosing weight and you've hit a plataue - just because the number on the scale isn't moving down doesn't mean you are not loosing inches day by day!!! You can still be loosing weight even if the number on the scale isn't budging so please DO NOT give up. In the end, it's the inches that count, not the number on an electronic machine.
So yeah, thats my story....the short version lol. Theres still so much I would say but I'll save that for another time. I really hope you enjoyed reading about my journey and I hope some of you guys will take my advice and make changes in your lives (if you have to) like the way I did.....
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